I Stand Alone

It's a song from the movie Quest For Camelot, and it has become my theme song. I DO stand alone. I have to—otherwise, I would just fall alone. It's frustrating, you know? Not having friends. Anywhere. I used to be really good at making friends, but now somehow I have gotten even better at losing them. Go me. I always say, if your life sucks make it better. Well maybe I should just make everyone else's life better and go die in a hole. Hey, don't get me wrong - I'm not suicidal. Okay, maybe a bit, but not much. Right now my life just sucks, and I have no idea how to make it better. Everywhere I go, I am a loner, something I've never been before in my life. And heck, I won't lie, it's been really hard for me.

HAHA but whatever, like anyone reading this cares.

Sooo, Walmart? Any Walmart fans?

Comment dire je veux mourir?

Tu Lo Sai

Don't ask me what it means. I kind of don't know. I have it written down somewhere...

Okay, so I just finished singing my solo for competition! I have a bit of a cold, so I kind of sucked, but oh well :) It was fun and a great experience. The fact that I can sing in front of people now without it being too big of a deal is...really, REALLY great! I used to freak out so, so much. And I still do. Just not as badly.

But anyways.

Ooh, I got new fictionpress/fanfiction accounts a while back! Check me (RandomnicityXD) out on them! :D





But on a different level, I'm feeling pretty good right now. Yea, my friend who wasn't really my friend but who I wanted to be friends with again really, really let me down. But hey, my old, beloved group of friends and I now at least exchange greetings. Definitely an improvement.

I think the library people wonder about me. I check out the randomest selection of books...lol :)

The Best Song Ever :)

Night time, Sharpens, Heightens each sensation,
Darkness, wakes and stirs imagination,
Silently the senses, abandon their defenses,
Helpless to resist, the notes I write,
For I compose the music of the night

Slowly, Gentley, Night unferrs it's splender,
Grasp it, Sense it, Tremulous and tender,

Hearing is believing,
Music is deceiving,
Hard as lightening, soft, as candle light,
Dare you trust the music of the night

Close your eyes,
For your eyes will only tell the truth,
And the truth isn't what you want to see,
In the dark it is easy to pretend,
But the truth is what it ought to be

Softly, Deftly,
Music shall caress you,
Hear it, feel it,
Secretly posess you

Open up your mind,
Let your fantacies unwind,
In this darkness which you know you can not fight,
The darkness of the music of the night

Close your eyes start a journey through a strange new world,
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before,
Close your eyes and let music set you free,
Only then can you belong to me

Floating, falling, sweet intoxication,
Touch me, trust me, savor each sensation,
Let the dream begin,
Let your darker side give in,
To the power of the music that I write,
The power of the music of the night

You alone can make my song take flight,
Help me make the music of the,
Help me make the music of the night